不是我不想也不是我想

你们知道么，有时候。。。
不是我不想说。。。
不是我不想告诉你们。。
不是我不想和你们讨论。。
不是我想撒谎。。。
不是我想骗你们让你们失去信任。。
可是我一旦说了出去，一切会结束，你们知道么？
我这样比你们任何人辛苦。。
我一说出去我会伤到你们。。
我可能就不能好好跟你们相处了。。
那么多年了，我一个人收着，有谁了解？
我当然希望我可以说。。但是你们能接受么？
要是我说了是不是我还是可以跟你们好好的呢？
还是一切将会改变？
我很怕。。我真的很怕这一天的到来。。
我跟别人不一样。。就是那个你们接受不到的不一样。。
如果我有的选择，我会这样么？
我从小就是这样，给人一直讲，可是我回家什么也没说。
我就只是一个人收着。。
可是谁会了解？
我真的不想骗你们。。我知道我说了出去，一切会被我毁灭。。
可能因为我，大家也不会再开心。。
因为我知道你们接受不了！

13 June 2011 Rasa Sayang Buffet, Penang

It was on monday...
we ( me, Kylie, Evana, Ily, Rachel and Ian ) went to Rasa Sayang for buffet.
Ian had made the reservation months ago.
It was a buy 1 free 1 buffet and thats why we went...
normally it cost us around hundred over for a person
but we only pay RM 60.30 each person for this dinner buffet.
To me, the food are still okay...but sadly i cant eat seafood >.<
we had an enjoyable night and we did snap a lot of pictures :-)

MYVI vs KELISA

It was so bad luck today...
i knocked at a kelisa...How?Why?
i also do not know why and how...
but the fact is ..i did knocked on it...
we decided to make a police report since the damage is quite big...
but im so paiseh to my sister as the car insured is under her name..
and she have to make the police report so that we can claim insurance..
i really have to thank her for that..i owe her once...
this is the 2nd time i had my car accident...
why am i still so careless?
mood very down these few days...